Juggling my world...

I haven't written in forever!! I have had so much goin on in my head, its like I have been on this journey. To be honest with you, I am still on this journey, the thoughts and emotions I am feeling are starting to get better. Baby steps I suppose. I had to let go of some things....... which hurt the most. I don't know where to go from here now. I feel like I am standing on the edge of a cliff, looking down with the wind blowing like crazy.
I started school, awesome.... I am having a great time, only now I am feeling like I don't want to persue my dreams with school. I need to reconnect myself. I need to continue, push forward.....*sigh*
My surgery is coming up, and I can't wait. At the same time I am nervous. Wish me luck.