I don't understand people. I made a judgment on someone.... because I listened to someone else, yeah yeah I know STUPID ME!! Well, I apologized to this person over and over and over again. She said everything was all good. But then pointed out my mistake again in a blog. I am just so confused, one after another it seems I keep getting all this bad stuff put on me. I don't talk about any of my friends, or tell any ones business anymore. I just don't do it anymore. I hurt people when I did, so I stopped. Of course I had to have a lot of bad stuff happen to me before hand, but it seems that it is only human to only learn the lesson when things get super bad. And another thing, why do people have to continue to hate me when I don't even talk to them anymore, when I haven't even seen any of them for like 6 months. I don't bother them. Wow, I have been told a lot of seriously bad stuff, and none of it has got me to cry, but I am on the actual verge!! Why is this happening to me? I guess I am getting tired of being the butt of a joke, or the subject of conversation, especially when I have already made my apologies. Especially when I am told that all is forgiven. ESPECIALLY when I haven't bothered or been involved with any one of them, or that I haven't caused any problems for them. None of them know whats going on in my life, I don't know what is going on in their lives. I don't sit and talk about them.
This week has been bittersweet, I learned I lost 20 pounds so far after having been sick and in pain for 2 weeks, but to only be told some stuff that is upsetting. I don't know whether to be happy or sad right now.
It seems a person can never win, that even when you sit back and NOT talk about others, and NOT share their business with anyone that you can still get slapped in the face, and stabbed in the back. Before, a few months ago, I deserved it, I was being to arrogant, and malicious, I let things get to my head, so truthfully I needed to be taught a lesson, but right now, honestly I don't believe I deserve this.........
Anonymous said...
Hey girl, do you mind if I put your feed on my blog?
November 30, 2007 at 10:13 PM
johnnysgirl82 said...
You have to remember that people are who they always are. No one can change overnight...just keep telling yourself that you ARE a wonderful person and you ARE a good person to other people..and let the other stuff roll off your back! Take care...
love, the person STILL stuck in LA LA Land
February 19, 2008 at 3:58 PM