A mother's love determines
A mother's love determines how
We love ourselves and others.
There is no sky we'll ever see
Not lit by that first love.
Stripped of love, the universe
Would drive us mad with pain;
But we are born into a world
That greets our cries with joy.
How much I owe you for the kiss
That told me who I was!
The greatest gift--a love of life--
Lay laughing in your eyes.
Because of you my world still has
The soft grace of your smile;
And every wind of fortune bears
The scent of your caress.
**Isn't that a nice poem? Gets you thinking about life in general. What your purpose is. I wish I had it in me to write in my blog everyday. But I don't. I don't want to bore all you special readers out there with the same thing everyday. My days are pretty boring, I wake up, take the kids to school, I come home get ready to work out, come home again, and sometimes babysit or clean house. Then get the kids from school, soccer practice and then dinner. Boring huh? Keeps me busy though.
I have been told that I have changed a lot in these past few months. They may be right. I mean I had some bad stuff happen. I got over it or learned to deal with it. I have met some outstanding people, and I have met some NOT outstanding people. I used to be the person that thought, "if I am part of a "mean" person's life that somehow, someway I could change that. I could get them to love or at least LIKE their life." Turns out, I am not so good at this. LOL. Turns out, by doing this I may not create drama, but it certainly surrounds me. Unfortunately a really nice person I knew got caught in my transitional stage and they were one of the first people that I kinda cut out of my life. I never cut people out of my life, so this is one of my flaws, or was. Now I am getting pretty good at cutting out the fat so to speak.
One thing I never thought I would hear myself say is this, "I lost 100 pounds!" Yup, me, I lost it. I cannot believe it. I don't know when I will ever get over this. It amazes me. Makes me want to cry. FINALLY, I am happy with me!! I am not saying that when I was bigger I wasn't better, I am saying, now I am not breathing hard, now I can actually sleep, now I don't sweat as much. Now I have A LOT of energy. Crazy what life brings to you huh?
School is good. I am getting pretty appropriate grades. I am not really good at writing formal papers without sounding like a stupid person, but I guess I will learn, eventually. LOL. I may be 28 years old, but darnit even old dogs can learn new tricks! LOL.
That is all for now. I hope to update again later!
Have a good one! And thanks for reading.
Amber
