Juggling my world...

I am so confused about the direction I should go.....

I am so confused
I don't know what to do.
I want my feelings to be diffused
and it seems no one has a clue

I want to change my life
make me a better person
and be someones wife
but its seems my pain has to worsen

Where do I go from here?
what does the future bring?
I have so much to fear
I have so much to sing

What things make me happy?
What things make me excited?
why do I feel so unhappy?
Why am I shortsighted?

I don't want to hurt people
I don't know who cares
I wish I could tell people
guess I will just wipe away my tears

I wish I could tell someone
I wish I could trust
I wish I could show someone
I wish I could do what I must

I don't want to let go
I know I will be happy
and then I can show
I just want to be happy

** This poem doesn't make any sense to you probably, but it makes sense to me, guess it shows just how confused I am, lol.**