Juggling my world...

Today I just wanted to sit on the computer and just play around. put to good use the stuff I am learning. Put things on my blog. Mess with my myspace, you know, just do basically useless stuff. When out of NO WHERE I get this feeling in my stomach, like something just wasn't quite right, so I try and call 2 of my friends, cause I had a feeling it was one of them. I was right, one of my friends sons was hurt playing with his bike and he had to go to the ER and get stitches. Poor little guy. Whenever I get feelings like that, and it turns out to be true, it trips me out. My other friend had a dream that the very same thing happened to her son, and ended up calling the friend whos kid was hurt right after it happened!! Isn't that just crazy!!??

Well anyway, me staying on the computer all day, didn't make someone very happy. What is he going to do when I am on the computer for school? I am getting all edgey, it seems like I can't really make anyone happy. So to compensate for that I try too hard. Reality is, I am the one not very satisfied with stuff. My friend brought up self destructing to me. Its a subject I often think about. I self destruct myself alot. I should not. Oh well. Guess that is just how life can be sometimes. And unfortunately I am a very emotional person. I can't seem to turn them off. I have had times where I just didn't care about anything. And then later my emotions seem to want to make up for lost time. UGGGGGH!

Well that is all for now. Guess I will write tomorrow when I have more interesting stuff to write. TTYS!