Juggling my world...

I have a job, I am enjoying it, but of course with work you have to work with people.... the unfortunate thing is you do not get to choose the people you work with or the people you will meet. I love being a photo specialist. I am enjoying the hell out of it, but I am freaking out. I wish the store would just open already so certain things will happen.

I am sitting here watching the movie "de ja vu" pretty interesting stuff. Too bad we really don't have the technology to do this, be able to go back to a certain day of a certain person to see what happened in the last few hours of whatever day. My goodness this would solve a lot of mysteries. Anyway off the subject.

I feel so overwhelmed with having to do school and work and then I get to come home to a house that is falling apart, and just when I think I am back on track... something happens to change the day, and I fall behind. I have a dream that one day I will be able to plan my kids clothes for the week, have a house that is swept and mopped, have dinners already made or at least begun... and my homework will be almost done. Yeah nice dream huh? LOL. I need to figure out a routine, but I need to get all this damn laundry folded and put away, and once I do, I will then start to do a list of chores I set a routine for, and my house will be CLLLLLLEEEEANNNNN, ahhh that would be nice. Its just so stressful to not be able to keep my shit together. I give props to all those chicks out there that can have a job, be a mom and wife, and go to school and still have the house clean and dinner started!! If you are out there and you are reading this, EMAIL ME!! I want some advice!! LOL.

Maybe sometime in the future I can hire a maid to come to my house for one day and straighten shit out, so that at least I have something to start from, and then I will be able to keep my shit clean hopefully.

A while back I was told that I had drama surrounding me, and I needed to get that away from me. At first all I thought to myself was, what the heck no I don't! But I had some things happen that opened my eyes, and I discovered that yes I do, I saw that by me trying to "help" someone that I barely know (someone that really doesn't give a shit about me), by listening to them or by trying to stand up for them I was putting myself in situations that had nothing to do with me! I learned that I needed to leave shit alone. Let things be, and if I meet someone, now, and they are always talking about "whoa is me", their life is terrible and all these people are bitches because they all hate them... I smile and say oh OK, well its time for me to go, nice talking to ya. And I never pursue a friendship with them. I don't need the negativity. I don't need to put myself in that situation with them. My friend calls it "broken sparrow" syndrome. Its pertains to those people that always have someone in their life that has something always wrong with them. Someone is always hurting them, something is never going their way.... so the people with the syndrome are always trying to help those people.

NONE OF THIS MAKES ANY SENSE!!!! ARGHHHH! Sorry. Its just my thoughts, written out to be a little erratic, and if you are reading this, sorry. That is what blogging/journaling is for. Its to help the writer in whatever way it helps them. Anyway I just want to say I am just pretty content with my life, and I hope things get a little less crazy with my new job. That is life though, someone out there is always adjusting to something new in their life. So here I am adjusting. I know I am gonna figure something out, that is my personality. I try to adapt to my surroundings, its something I learned being a military brat. I am sure there are people out there that were not military brats that can do this same thing.

The night is ending and I need to get some sleep, to go to work in the morning, this will be one of the few times I will ever work on a Saturday. I don't like not being home to spend time with my husband when he finally has the time off. This sucks though, I am just working tomorrow cause I am trying to make up for losing Tuesday. We need the money. My husband is working on Sunday so I lose that opportunity with him.. dammit.

Love to all have a good night, and seeeeeeeeee yaaaaaaa!!!!